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Jun. 26th, 2001 02:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
justbrandieI'm here at OSU orientating and realizing just how close I am to finally getting what I really really want. To be gone. To disappear. I told mom today that my plan for at least the first few months is to be a wallflower. I'm tired of acting and performing and putting myself out on the table to be disected so I'm gonna take the low rode and see how things go. I'm tired of having huge webs of friends with no one to even call my own. But the tides, they are a changing and all I can say is..I can't wait at all.
There's so much to do, see, feel and be here and I could never explain it and don't really want to try. The high school bullshit is over..and I don't know where my life is heading, but I have a feeling it's going to be amazing. I know there's no way for me to leave this place unchanged, and that's exactly what I've always wanted. I'm here by Mirror Lake right now, and I want the water to rush over me, cleanse my wounds and make me whole again. I can feel it and I see the transparent bubbles...containers of life...and I hope one day I can be enveloped by them, feel their dry air, and be free.
There's so much to do, see, feel and be here and I could never explain it and don't really want to try. The high school bullshit is over..and I don't know where my life is heading, but I have a feeling it's going to be amazing. I know there's no way for me to leave this place unchanged, and that's exactly what I've always wanted. I'm here by Mirror Lake right now, and I want the water to rush over me, cleanse my wounds and make me whole again. I can feel it and I see the transparent bubbles...containers of life...and I hope one day I can be enveloped by them, feel their dry air, and be free.